Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
More boy stories.
Yet again I'm faced with the fact that I have 2.5 men interested in me who are significantly younger than I am and yet again I am not interested in any of them. Damn! Why does this keep happening!!! It seems the guys I like aren't into me and the men who like me I'm not interested in. Awesome, I love it when life kicks you when your down. So frustrating cuz these guys are good and decent, all very sweet, thoughtful, appreciators of art and very giving. I'm just not that into them. What the heck!?!?
Thursday, September 3, 2009
As I begin teacher's college I am reminded of my experiences in elementary school. I'm filled with tons of anxiety from the past. Elementary school scarred me, my learning disability caused a lot of damage to me and has continued on into how I even now deal with stress. To begin with I'm a person that needs a lot of encouragement in order to try new things and then to have to go through the pressure of school, it was horrible.
Math class brought up a lot of bad memories for me! Our teacher had us each tell our stories of learning math and I was surprised at how many people had just as bad an experience as me, it was then that my anxiety began to subside.
I dunno though, I'm exhausted and I feel like I'm just going to be running a marathon this whole year....HELP!!!
Plus mom keeps talking about me finding a husband and giving me the purity talk. Awesome, NOT:(. Just because I'm getting my life on track finally doesn't mean I'll have all of my ducks in a row. I've done all the 'right' things in my life and that doesn't garantee a fairy tale ending.