Friday, January 26, 2007

Today is a Shitty Day

Today is a shitty day!
A day where I feel tired and wonder what the hell God is doing because everything feels out of control.
Today is a day where I feel liking cussing out my boss, a day where I feel insignificant and anxious about my life.
I'm confused about my strengths and weeknesses. Discouraged about being disastisfied with God, life, love, family, living arrangements, luck, education.....everything!
Today is a day I would love to eat a gallon of some sort of vanilla ice cream with chocolate something and nut something swirled together.
Today is a day I would like to be void of emotion and be numb to feeling.
If I were a drug addict I would probably choose my pharmacy of choice (shady character, drug-store, bar, pub) and then I would inject/swallow that drug right away.
If I was a cutter I'd cut away so that I would feel the high of cutting.
Today is a day that if I was a gambler I would gamble all of my money away just to feel the rush and possibilty of winning.
Today is a day that if I was a porn adict I would look at the worst porn so that I could waste my life away in fantasy.
Today is a day that if I was a chronic shopper I would spend and spend so my pleasure in spending would be met. I would spend so much I'd have to have my possessions reposessed because of my debt.
Today is a day that if I was a kleptomaniac I would collect every pen in sight!
It is a day where if I was a video gamer I would spend the day chained to my TV trying to get to the next level in the game.
Today is a day where if I was anorexic I would starve myself and exercise until I calapsed.
Today is a day that if I felt like no one wanted to hear me rants and complaints I would write it on a blog. Hopeing somone might hear my pain.
Today is a shitty day! That only swear words and bad grammar can adequatly explain.

1 comment:

/dr. said...

this post stuck in me like a sliver. i've come back to it a few times since i first read it.

i hope the lent season is going well for you!
/dr.